Wow, it’ already June. This year is flying by. I …

Wow, it’ already June. This year is flying by. I have had alot going on in my life and I haven’t updated as often as I should. I am sure that any readers I had I have lost. Today I wet to a graduation Party for some kid who’s mom works with my mom. It was nice. Today was a perfect day weather wise here in Baltimore. 75 degrees, sunny. It was great. {For anyone who doesn’t know my mom has cancer, stage 3 lung cancer. That is in reission now, but for how long no body knows. Well I won’t be around my mom when she is smoking. I just cant do it. It upsets me and makes me feel so horrible inside. She knows this and usually doesn’t smoke around me. If she does I usually just get up and go home. I can’t be around her while she is doing thatt. Just knowing that I will probaly lose my mom in a few years and the only reason is because she has smoked for 40 years, just tears me up inside} SO at this party it is lot of my mom’s work friends and all and it was nice. Well then my mom disapeared for a while and I thought she had went to the bathroom. Well my sister an I desided to take a walk. We got near this wall and my mom and a few of her work friends were there. Well I looked and she was smoking. She asked all casually where we (my sister and I) were going. Well I said HOME. I was so upset. It has been months since I have seen her smoking. In the past few days I have been in such a bad mood (with all good reason) and this was just something I couldn’t take right now. I started to the car and my sister (the ass kisser she is) went over and talked to my mom. I just wanted to leave. I tried to get into my sisters car, I was going to call someone to come and get me (since I had driven with Laura). Her doors were locked and I had to use a stick and hit the automatic lock button. Well I did and as soon as I opened the door her alarm went off (I didn’t even know she had one). So by now I am upset and I am imbarassed because everyone is looking and the stupid thing wouldn’t go off. I just walked away. I then went to my moms car and got in and called my sister on her cell phone. I was like “Laura get back here now”. I also told her the whole story with the stick and all and I also told her she better come and take me home because if she didn’t I was taking my moms car and leaving. She came and turned it off and took me home. Well now I am in a super crappy mood! We were supposed to go to the BAR BALTIMORE, but I told her nevermind. I just don’t feel like going now. I also know I wouldn’t be great company and I would rather not get into any arguments with her right now. So tonight I will just rent movie and stay home in my PJ’s.

On a better note I am thinking of Moving to Ocean City, Maryland. I have contacted a couple title insurence companies and I really want to just find a nice place to live and a good job and I will be set.