I am stuck here at work for two more days until th…

I am stuck here at work for two more days until the weekend. I am so poor this week I will be living on peanut butter and jelly for the week. LOL It’s ok cause my rent will be paid and I will still have a house…LOL

I wore the worst possible thing today. It is a black chenille Sweater and it is new. I had it cleaned before I wore it, but my whole office if covered in Black fuzz! It was even all in my lunch. Ewe! I had the best lunch! Last night I made a pork Roast with my mom’s secret topping! MMMM So good! I also made Garlic Mashed Potatoes. God they were good. I am so silly though. Greg is coming over for dinner right, so I am roasting Garlic for the potatoes and it is done way before the roast and I am picking out the garlic cloves to add to the potatoes and what do I do??? I stuck one in my mouth and eat it not even thinking. Well Nikki gets so hysterical. I was all absent minded not thinking that when Greg comes in and kisses me hello I will be all repelling vampires and what not. I had to run upstairs and brush my teeth and mouthwash out my mouth. I was glad too because when Greg came he had brought me a bunch of Stargazer Lilies. They are so my favorite flower and he really got a nice kiss for that! I love how thoughtful he is! He just surprised me out of the blue on a ordinary Wednesday night with flowers! I was so excited!

Tonight “the shows” are on. I can’t wait. ER looks great! I just love Abby and Carter together! Friends looks funny as ever. I really hope they make a go at another season. I just haven’t liked any new shows in so long and my good old favorites keep going off the air!

Our trip is really almost set! We reserved the truck last night and I called and reserved the Hotel today when I got to work. We are defiantly staying at the Sheraton. It looks like a nice hotel. All that is left is to get the tickets online this weekend probably and we are all set! Our flight leaves at 8:00am and we get to New York at 9:10. Not to bad if you ask me. It is an 8 hour drive so the 70 minutes in the air will be a breeze!

Wednesday! Only two more days until the weekend! …

Wednesday! Only two more days until the weekend! Somedays I think I hate people. I just spoke to the rudest lady in the world on the phone. I was sickly sweet and I hope she hated it! Dawson�s Creek comes on tonight. I love this show. I knew I have out grown it, but it�s all I have left of the good teen shows. I still wish all the time the 90210 was still on. Thank god for FX. Dawson��I think this is a cool name. I however already have my future, unmade children�s names picked out.

I am getting so excited about my upcoming New York Trip. Greg and I are flying up on November 8th and then driving back a U-haul full of his stuff from when he used to live there. I kinda feel funny going up there knowing his ex-girl friend will be so close. I am excited about the trip though! I love trips and Hotels. I believe we are staying at the Sheraton Hotel. It has an indoor pool. I can�t wait to go swimming. We are going to meet Lisanne (if all goes as planned) and her husband Jeff for dinner at The Wheatfields. This is a Pasta restaurant which, makes all there own Pasta on location.

We are also taking a trip at the end of the month. We are going to Ocean City, MD the night of Thanksgiving and staying until December 1st. Nikki and her Boyfriend Jason are meeting us �doweyocean� (a little Baltimore accent there) on Friday night. We have a bunch of cool places to go not to mention lots of Christmas Shopping to start at the outlet malls. The Christmas celebration of lights starts that weekend. I am excited. I think my dad is going to let us use his condo for the weekend.

Well I totally hate working late. I am just getti…

Well I totally hate working late. I am just getting home and making dinner. A scrambled Egg. I had alot to do today and more for tomorrow. I need a raise and have been up for one since July at my aniverary. No one wants to take the time to do my evaluation. I am ready to start letting up on the amount of overtime and extra stuff I do until the realize that I am needed more then they all think!

I am really sleepy so this is a quicky entry! I hope you all have a great night.

P.S. Did anyone see the end of CSI last night….I fell asleep!!

I am getting ready to leave for work. I just want…

I am getting ready to leave for work. I just wanted to post a quick message…..Greg if you are reading this leave me a comment and let me know! I have a sneaky suspition he has located my blog…HEHE…everyone else who is reading this can leave me a comment too….I love them. Everyone have a super day!!!!!!!!

I had a super weekend. On Friday I stayed up unti…

I had a super weekend. On Friday I stayed up until 2:30 making Bath Products that a lady from work ordered. It all turned out good. Saturday morning I woke up early and went to Ellen’s Church in Irvington. She seemed to like them a lot. After that I went through the graveyard that connects Irvington to Arbutus. It’s called Loudon Park. I “visited” my grandmothers. I also got upset thinking about how hard it must be to not have your parents. My Mom is sick and it upsets me so much. I know I shouldn’t think like that.

Saturday I came home and cleaned really good and I took a shower and put on my favorite outfit….Jeans and a black sweater and my boots. Greg came over and soon as he walked in he told me how beautiful I looked. He is such a sweetie. I am really starting to think he is the one. We get alone so good and he is so nice and sweet. After he picked me up and gave me my present, an expansion pack for the game Roller Coaster Tycoon. Then we went to Papa John’s Pumpkin Farm. We got two Pumpkins and some squirrel corn. Then we went to our favorite place to eat, T.G.I.Fridays. Then we came home and carved our pumpkins. They are so cute. I took pictures of us so I will post them soon as I get them developed. We also went to Walmart and watched Trading Spaces. All in all a great night.

Sunday Greg woke me up with a kiss and he whispered in my ear “Happy 3 month Anniversary”. We then got up and played Roller Coaster Tycoon and I made breakfast. Then we watched the Raven’s game and I fell asleep. It was great! Greg had to go to work though so I got dressed and went to my mom’s. My Mom & Dad and Laura and I had a great dinner and then rented a movie. It was a lot of fun!

HI! It seems like ages since I have written. Onl…

HI! It seems like ages since I have written. Only two days or so really! Right now I am answering phones for the receptionist while she is at lunch. I wish the phone would stop ringing so I can write!


This paragraph contains graphic details of a trip to the �Girl Doctor�, skip it if you would like. When I left you all last I was heading to the Doctor the next day. I woke up Wednesday worrying about it. Being scared and apprehensive. I took a shower and got all ready to leave and I looked down and had Eyeliner all over my pants! I had to change clothes then run to pick up my mom, who was going to the doctor with me. Well I get to the doctor and take the pregnancy test (negative�wh-oo) and I get weighed (down two whole pounds since august�LoL). Then I went into the room and found out by reading this poster that fourteen days after you start your period you are the most fertile (I know when to skip sex, now don�t I?). Then the nurse took my Blood Pressure (122/83). I then told her how scared I was. Now this isn�t the first Colposcopy (a procedure in which the cervix is examined with a microscope). The nurse was so nice and calmed me down some, then Dr. Shih came in and hugged me (kinda weird with me sitting there in my sweater and lovely lap cover provided by the nurse), Dr. Shih sat down and we talked about what she was going to do. I asked her what caused my Pap to came back LSIL (Low-grade Squamous intraepithelial lesions). She told me it could be simple as irritation or it could be a Pre Cancer Cells, strain of HPV or some other infection such and a Yeast infection or a bacterial infection. She also told me they would take cultures for everything under the sun and a biopsy of the center of the cervix. See during the Colposcopy they paint your cervix with a vinegar solution that will pick up any Pre Cancer Cells. So she started the procedure and explained that Kathy the nurse is new and had never done this before. So it was good to hear her explain everything to the both of us. She did the Colposcopy and said my cervix was pretty boring. No signs of anything except a cyst on the side that was there before, but was turning white with the vinegar solution on it. She said they were going to Biopsy that too. UGH! I know I can�t have children. These Biopsies hurt so bad. I was crying. During the last one, the cyst, I started bleeding bad and she had to use some medicine to get me to stop bleeding. I was then instructed to go home and lay with my feet up to slow the bleeding. I missed the whole day at work. Hey also told me no sex and no tampon use, which sucks! I haven�t used pads for like 6 years. I then headed home and put on my PJ�s and took a nap and lay around all night.


Yesterday sucked! I was still crampy and I came to work and I had so so much to do. This is the busiest week of the month. I got a lot done and I left on time. I had a lot to last night. I went home and my swap box was there. I was so excited. As I was opening it I got online to check my Email and Lisanne was on. We opened our boxes together. It was fun! We talked about stuff we had gotten and all! Then I had a quick plate of Spaghetti and left. I went to the dollar store to get baskets and Bath Poofs to put into the baskets I am making for Ellen�s (a work friend) Church benefit. Then I went to JoAnn Fabrics for some fabric to put on the jars. Then I went to get my nails done. I was an hour late for my appointment. It was at 7 and I thought it was at 8, so I was late! Then I left and stopped and my mom some Chili and went to her house to wash clothes. I didn�t get home until 12:00. Then I had not heard from Greg all night and was worried. He called me at 12:30 and he was still at work! The silly guy had fallen asleep. LoL Then I went up to bed and couldn�t fall asleep until like after 2. I am so sleepy.

I have a lot to do tonight. I have to pick up little Rachel (goddaughter) and we have to have a talk about lying and the consequences of it. Then I have to go get the rest of my soap making supplies and then come home to make 6 Jars of Sugar Scrub, 6 bags of bath salts, 6 bags of bath bombs, 6 bible soaps, and 6 lip balms! I will be up all night. Hope you all have a great weekend.

I know I know….I missed a day yesterday. I had …

I know I know….I missed a day yesterday. I had such a nice weekend! Greg met my mom and that went well. She said he seemed nice. We had a good time at the farmers market. Greg bought me a pretty mum. It is light purple and white. I also got mushrooms to make some spaghetti. I love mushrooms. No one else is a big fan of them, but I figure they can pick them out. Greg lent me a great game. Rollercoaster tycoon. Has anyone ever played? It is so fun. Almost Sims fun. My Sims haven’t been working good lately. I need a new computer.

Yesterday I worked until 8 PM. Then I went to the grocery store and got stuff for the lunch that was today. It wasn’t horrible, but these work people need a lesson on party throwing. Then I had Dinner at Nikki’s dad’s. It was ok. He isn’t the worlds best cook.

Today I am working late again, then I may go to Fresh Fields. I have a Bath Product order. I am making up 5 baskets for this lady at work to give to her church people. I need Sweet Almond Oil and have no time to order any!

Things with Greg are going so great. On the 27th it will be 3 months that we have been together. He is so nice and sweet. I do think I am in love with him. We have so much in common. We are taking a trip to Saratoga Springs New York in November. I am excited! We are most likely having dinner with Lisanne and her husband. I have never met anyone offline before, but I feel like I know her, she has been a great friend.

Tomorrow I am coming into work late. I have a “Girl Doctor” appointment tomorrow. It is a follow up from last months appointment. I am scared. My Pap Test came back abnormal. This happened last year and after a biopsy and a colposcopy* I was told I was fine and it was nothing to worry about. That is what I am having done tomorrow. I am scared. I hope nothing is wrong. It could be pre-cancer signs. I hope nothing is seriously wrong!

I will update tomorrow. Good Night!

*This is a test that involves a microscope and it is not painful, the biopsy is the PAINFUL part. Well last year the doctor is all down there with this microscope and the nurse it there and the thing won’t come on. They are all trying it and messing around with this microscope and I am spread Eagle and they are in between my legs with a microscope for like ever. It took forever! LOL It was so funny!

T.G.I.F. I am so glad it is Friday. I love weeke…

T.G.I.F. I am so glad it is Friday. I love weekends! They are so great. This weekend I have a lot planned. Ok OK not a whole lot, but some fun stuff. Tonight I am going to my aunt’s house. She lives like an hour and 15 minutes away in Easton. This is my favorite aunt! I call her RuRu. Short for Aunt Ruth. Hey when you are just learning to talk you make up names for everyone, only special ones stick. I miss my cousin Jonny. He is a great kid. He is a Senior this year. It is weird how growing up our two family’s were always super close, but individually we weren’t. Since they moved to Easton 4 years ago I have become so close to “the Boys” Matt and Jonny. Matt is currently in school in Frostburg. I think I am going to go visit him for his birthday in March this year. Tomorrow morning we are going to go yard saleing. I am excited. I am also going to help my aunt make a lamp. I bought beads at the deadly Michael’s Craft Store the other day for it. Then tomorrow afternoon, after my uncle goes to work I am coming home and making dinner for Greg and I. We are having spaghetti and garlic bread. Then we are having a sleep over. I love when he stays. Then Sunday Morning we are taking my mom to the Farmer’s Market. My mom loves the market. This is the first time she will be meeting Greg. I am nervous. Every time I have tried to get her to meet him she has gotten sick. I hope my mom likes him, cause I sure do.

Speaking of Greg….He wants to read this Blog. I am scared to let him. I don’t have much in it, and surely not much secret stuff. I am just scared to let him read it. We will see though. Well I am off to my aunts, I hope you all have a great weekend!

Well I never got around to another entry yesterday…

Well I never got around to another entry yesterday did I? Today I woke up with a tummy ache and ended up staying home from work. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I did how ever get up clean the kitchen and dinning room and living room. Vacumed, Dusted, Mopped! It smells so good in here now. I watched some TV, a Baby Story, Makeover Story and a Wedding Story. I beat all the levels in Zelda except for level 9. I am going to take a bath when I am done this. I am going to use a bath bomb from Rachel. She sells them along with lots of other Bath Products. Not that I have to pay! LOL

Tonight Nikki and I have our night of TV fun. Friends, Will & Grace, and ER. I so look forward to Thursdays.

My last entry should have been made yesterday. I …

My last entry should have been made yesterday. I should have another one up tonight for today’s. Arnt you all proud of me for keeping up. If anyone would like to help me set up a comments section (I am so lost when it comes to HTML please email me at Goldeelox9@aol.com!

Wow, what a great three days off! I wish they wou…

Wow, what a great three days off! I wish they wouldn’t have ended. Friday after work I went to my mom’s. She surprised me with some Shrimp Salad. MMM It was so good. I washed all my clothes and all my bed linens. My sister was in New York walking in the fireman’s parade so I stayed with my mom. It was nice. I slept in my old room. It feels so weird sleeping in there. My sister moved in before I was completely out the door, but it still looks a lot the same.

Saturday I got up and went to the deadly Michael’s Craft Store. I got some things for the swap and went home and made soap for hours and hours and hours. See what I get for waiting until the last minute. The soap turned out great. Nikki’s brother Brian (my adopted brother) came over and we played Nintendo. We are like obsessed. LOL We found our old systems and have been playing a lot. LOL Then I got a shower and Greg picked me up and we went to dinner at T.G.I. Fridays. It was so good. I had the best drink. A Cran Orange Freeze! UGH It was heaven. Then we went to see Red Dragon. It was the best movie I have seen in so long. Please everyone go see it! It was so great. Then we came home and had a sleep over at my house. He He! It was funny, Greg lives at home with his mom since he moved home from New York a year or so ago, when he was leaving he said “I will be home tomorrow” and she said “Oh yeah what’s new. Soon you will be moving over there with Lisa.” Greg informed her I don’t want to live with anyone until I am married. Well I gained major mom points there! LOL Then Sunday we got up and I made us omelets for breakfast and we watched Trading spaces. Greg has nick named Frank – Sweaty and Doug – Dictator. LOL He wasn’t a fan until I made him watch the show. He has agreed to be my partner if I am ever on the show.

UGH! Why isn’t work over yet! They are planning …

UGH! Why isn’t work over yet! They are planning a luncheon and they are so stupid! I swear I hate my co workers. I don’t know if we are just different people or not, but they are stupid! Dumb ass people! They want us all to bring in something. I said that I would bring in Chicken Salad. Ok so that would be a Roaster $10.00 – Celery, Mayo, Onions, Salt, Pepper – 5.00 Rolls -$5.00 Ok that is $20.00. Then they want to us all to give $10.00 to contribute to the boss’s gifts. Well The “Bosses” didn’t even wish me a Happy Birthday. That is just stupid. I think that they are taking things to far. They are making dumb shit to. I hate eating things people make. There houses could be dirty or they may have animals. It is stupid! God I think either a gift or lunch. I hate work. I hate the people here (besides Nikki). They are just morons. They are getting this one lowlife guy to bring ICE. I am spending $20.00 and he is getting $.89 Ice. WTF???? I wouldn’t mind if maybe I would have gotten a Happy Birthday from one of those assholes on my birthday!

Last night I had a horrible experience. Nikki and I went shopping and I got lots of Christmas stuff. Then we got Hot Dogs and came home to watch “The Shows”. We watched Friends. How funny was “Mike” playing piano. Then we sat around and I organized Christmas Songs on the computer and just pretty much hung out. I then got up to clean up the dishes and all. Nikki went up to pee. Will and Grace was coming on and We were getting ready to watch that. Nikki went into the bathroom and shut the door. Well I heard her screaming. I ran upstairs and she was in the tub. Apparently there was a mouse in our bathroom. I didn’t even know we had a mouse. I am thinking it made it’s way into the house with all of the rain we have been having. Well it was on it’s way out and Nikki was shutting the bathroom door and it didn’t make it. His head was on the outside of the door and his body was on the inside. His little face was crushed in the door. It was horrible. Nikki and I are both big scary cats. We needed someone to come and rescue us. We called My Dad, My Sister, Nikki’s Dad, Nikki’s Brother. No one would save us! So I finally played the helpless Girlfriend Card and called Greg. He didn’t want to come over, but he did. He came and saved me. He was my Hero! He saved us from having to pack up and move. Then he spent the night and that was nice. I love having someone there to protect me. LOL Like I am some helpless female. LOL But still It was nice.

Now I am at work flipping out. I swear I hate these people. I am listening to this lady Wanda go on and on about how great our bosses are. Well if they want to pitch in for bosses day ok then. But we don’t do birthday’s around here. I have never gotten a card, a cake, nothing! Nikki got her tonsils out and she didn’t get as much as a card from those so called great bosses. God I wish today was over. I have to go to my moms and do laundry as my washing machine is still broken.

Wanna hear a funny story. About a year ago Laura was feeling silly at work and faxed me a sign that said I Luv U. Well it was written out of a turd in a toilet. LOL She didn’t use a cover page so I didn’t claim it as mine since someone else pulled it off of the fax. Well it turns out that Laura works for the Vice President’s Allergist. So Dr. Martinay’s name was on the top of the fax. So everyone asked who sent it and I played dumb. So the Boss thought it would be funny to say that Tony’s Allergist loved him and put it on Tony’s door. Well just today, one year later, Wanda and Ellen another co-worker seen it and they think it is disgusting. LOL How funny it that!

I would like everyone to keep Lisanne and her fami…

I would like everyone to keep Lisanne and her family in your thoughts and prayers, her grandmother passed away today.

Hey look at this….Two days in a row. Work was s…

Hey look at this….Two days in a row. Work was stressful today. It was Nikki’s first day back since she got operated on. We decided that we aren’t working late. This whole Sniper thing has us kinda scared. I mean last night when the false report went out saying that there was a shooting in Linthicum I was so scared. I went around and shut the windows and shut the curtains and made sure the doors were all locked tight. Nikki and I jumped at every sound we heard. She even slept in my room we were so scared.

I found a Christmas Tree last night. It is wonderful. They didn’t have any to buy yet they were all on display, but shipments of them aren’t due into next week! I will have to go and get one then. I did get some ornaments and beads for the tree.

Tonight Nikki and I are going to Marley Station Mall to look at the Christmas stuff. Then we are going to get a Foot Long Hot Dog from Ann’s Dairy Cream. YYYUUUMMM They are so good. Then it is off to Watch the greatest night or TV. Friends, Will & Grace and ER. I hope Rachel and Ross get together. I also really want Will and Grace to make a baby! I am mad Grace is wanting to back out now. I may alos deside to clean my messy house tonight too. That is a project for during the filler shows inbetween the good ones.

I don’t understand why you need to have cramps. Why can’t you just have your period with out the constant reminder????? Well I am off to catch my bus and head home.

I know I updated once today already, but this is a…

I know I updated once today already, but this is an update for the day. That was an update to let you all know I am updating.

Well last night I went to get my nails done. They look good. They are a shinny wine color. Then I went home and Greg called. He wanted to know if I was up for diner and a movie. That really ment Pizza and a Video. We got The sweetest thing. It had Cameron Diaz (who I hate) and Christina Applegate in it. Kelly Bundy was SO funny. I really really enjoyed it. We tried Papa Johns Chicken strips. They pretty much sucked. Then we watched the Real World. Is it just me or does it suck this season? I don’t like the cast, I don’t feel they have let up get to know them before they are naked and drunk. I have been to Vegas though and it is cool to see the landmarks. I can’t wait to go back.

Greg is so sweet. For no reason at all he will grab my hand and just kiss it. He also stares at me all lovingly. LOL I am a total romantic so I kinda dig all this.

Tonight I am going to look for a Christmas Tree. Yes Yes I know it is October! I need to find one though. I want a White Tree. I bough great purple lights (with a white cord) and have tons of purple and silver ornaments. Rachel’s mom is making me a Tree Skirt (Note to self: Give Rachel the fabric ASAP!), the tree skirt is purple and teal and white. It is so cute. I am so happy to be decorating this year. I can’t wait until Christmas!

Well I know it have been months since I have l…

Well I know it have been months since I have last taken time to write in here. I know I have been a bad blogger. I think I am going to try to type my entry at work and then Email it to myself. This is what I did today.

So much has been going on in my life since I last wrote (the reason for not writing perhaps). I have a new boyfriend, my mom is still sick and work has been nuts.

Lets start with the boy friend thing….His name is Greg and he is a 24 year old printer. He is smart and funny and he treats me so so good. We have been seeing each other for a little over two months now. We met at the grocery store, then again at the library. He called and we have been seeing each other ever since.

My mom…..Well they found out she has two new tumors on her lower spinal cord. They are making her go paralyzed from the waste down. Some times she can’t even feel her feet. It is horrible. We are all having a hard time dealing with it. She hates being alone and is in pain 24/7. I feel so bad. She told me the other day she wants to give up. I broke down and cried and cried. She said to me “you don’t know how it feels to be in pain everyday” I replied with “Your right, but Mom you do how it feels to loose a Mother” It wasn’t the nicest thing to say I know, but I can’t help it. I really can’t imagine my life with out her. I need her. How can I get married and have kids and all with out my mom. Who will I have to be there for me no matter what. I have convinced her to talk to the doctor about better pain management. She doesn’t like complaining to the doctors. When they found her new tumors they also found a HUGE mass attached to her ovary. She got operated on in the beginning of September. They did a full hysterectomy. The tumor ended up being non cancerous, but was the size of a regulation NBA basketball.

Work…….What more can I say besides I hate it. It isn’t so much work, just the amount of it. I have decided I want to be a Labor and Delivery Nurse. I just don’t think I can afford to go back to school. I have no time (see above) and no money to pay for it.

I am trying to get caught up on my bills right now. I have SO many. I want to get debt free with in the next year or two so I can get a new car. I want a Jeep Liberty. I also need to start saving for my wedding. No I am not engaged, or even close, but I have such dreams and I know I can’t expect my dad to pay for them all.

Speaking of Dad’s…….My dad took my sister and I to Las Vegas in August. It was awesome. I can’t wait to go back. Just the other day I was talking to him about Christmas and he asked me if I would rather get presents or take another trip. DUH!!!!! I said the trip of course. He isn’t sure where yet. I am thinking either Las Vegas again (I know my dad’s friends are all going in January) or Disney World. Now I went to Disney World and on the Disney Cruise last January, but it has been like 3 years almost since my Dad has been. He is such a kid. I am excited about going away with him again. I am lucky I think my parents actually like my sister and I. We are 24 and 21 and my Dad still wants us to go on family vacations. I wonder how this will change when we get married?

Laura…….my sister. She is amazing. She can be a little devil at times, but she is doing so much with her life. I envy her to a point. She just turned 21 in May and is still a full time College student. She also works 25-30 hours a week at an Allergist’s office. She gives Allergy Shots and does skin test. She is also a Volunteer Firefighter and EMT. She was just promoted to Sergeant. She wants to be a Flight Paramedic someday. I am proud of her for finding her dream and working for it.

So anyway this was a long update of bits and pieces of what’s been up in my life. I am going to start writing semi daily. It will probably be in Journal form (no links, or not many for now). But it is writing never the less. Talk to you all soon….Bye Bye