I wish I was home! I really think I may be gettin…

I wish I was home! I really think I may be getting a little bit depressed. I cried this morning because I didn�t want to come to work. I hate feeling this way. I am sad 95% of the time. My mom is doing horribly. She can�t eat anymore. Yesterday all she had was a piece of toast and one Graham Cracker. How can a person survive on that??? She is so stubborn too and that just frustrates me. Also with Mother�s day coming up and my birthday and Laura�s Birthday, I am just getting more and more sad. With every commercial for cards or flowers I see I get chocked up. I know I am crying an average of 2-3 times a day. I just hate getting out of bed each morning. Last night Greg came over my mom�s and seen her for the first time in a few months and he got chocked up and told me that he was so sorry because he couldn�t picture that she would look so bad and no matter how many times I told him how sick she was or how horrible she looked he wasn�t ready for what he saw. I just don�t know what I am going to do! Tonight I am going to try again to go to Nikki�s and get my things that are still there. Every time I have tried to go get it in the past week my mom has gotten sick or something and I haven�t been able to make it over there. That is just one more thing weighing down on me! Last night I tried calling her so my Dad and Greg could go get some of the stuff there, but there was no answer and I wasn’t about to send them down there with out knowing if Nikki would be home. I just couldn’t leave my mom last night, not alone. We don’t let her stay alone for any peirod of time. I don’t know how I am going to manage this weekend, My sister and Dad will be away all weekend! I was thinking about it and since my mom got sick not once have I went to my own house right after work! I am sorry to ramble on and on about all this, It just helps to talk about it all once in a while.

Monday�s are the worst! I hate them. I so di…

Monday�s are the worst! I hate them. I so didn�t want to get up this morning. Last night I borrowed a drill from Jodi and Rick since mine got lost in the move! I was hanging curtains at 12:00 last night. I still have so much to do and I want it to look good for when Rachel and Brian come over this week. I got to really good pictures of Laura, my mom and me and I framed them for my picture wall. I also had copies made and frames them to put in my Mom�s bedroom. I will post copies if I can get Laura to scan them for me. I did a lot of shopping this weekend. I got shelves for the living room and the curtain rod and a big Mirror for the living room, I got a cool picture for my Pink and Orange bathroom.

My mom had a rough weekend. She slept for 22 hours on Saturday. I am so worried about her. She hasn�t been able to go downstairs in a week and with my aunt going home due to medical problems of her own I don�t know what we are going to do!

I have been at work for an hour and one of my co-workers is already flipping out! I hate when she gets like this. She needs to relax! Well I am off to get back to work.

It is too early! I wish I was still asleep. I am…

It is too early! I wish I was still asleep. I am getting ready to go to my friend Tony’s house to do his settlement for his refinance. Rated are just sooo low right now. I called his mother last night to tell her I was going to Tony’s today and we ended up talking for over an hour. She is such a nice women. I was telling her about my mom’s latest and all and I was almost in tears when she told me that she would be my second mother and that she has always loved me and will be there for me as long as I need her. I thought that was a pretty nice thing for her to say.

It is so rainy and yukky out today. I hate rain. My hair is a big old ball of fuzz in the rain. After the settlement I am going to my mom’s for a while then Greg and I are going to work on sorting out all of my Clothes. I want to take some to the consignment shop and just get rid of some others.

Well I better go blow bry my hair and do some make up!

Last night was nice. I went to visit my mom. The…

Last night was nice. I went to visit my mom. Then I went home and wrapped Greg�s Birthday Gift. Now I can say what it is. I got him a TV/VCR combo for his bedroom and an Orioles baseball hat. I think he really liked them. Then I made us a good dinner. Big Fat Pork Chops and Baked Potatoes. We ate as we watched Friends and Will & Grace and ER. My sister came over and watched ER with us. Now I have a few things to say about the shows. Friends: Why won�t Rachel and Ross get back together??? I think it is pretty low of Joey to jump up on Ross�s girl. Will & Grace: I loved how it turned out the Karen owned the building that Madonna lived in. It was so funny. ER: OMG, I love this show! I cried so hard, I can�t believe Gamma is dead. I will miss her. She was so punchy. I felt so bad for Carter! I hope this doesn�t strain Carter and Abby�s relationship. Abby had to go collect her lost brother and couldn�t be there for Carter, but it was her brother, how could she not go get him. I can see how it would upset him though. Next week looks so good! I hate Dr. Ramano. He is such a jerk. I loved when Dr. Pratt showed him up! I just love this show! I also cut off curtains and hemmed them to fit my Kitchen window. I hung them up and they look really good. This weekend my goal is to completely sort all of my clothes and get everything put away. I can�t wait for my next paycheck to buy a book case and a backers rack. I have found the two I want! My dad baile don me so I would be able to collect the last of my stuff from my old house until Monday now. Well atleast I am paid up until the end of the month. Greg and Laura have a softball game tonight. It is the first of the season and I hope it doesn’t get rained out. Good luck guys! I hope everyone has a good weekend.

***This just in. I am so excited. You all know “90210” is my favorite show. Well we all know where I will be May 11th. A reunion show. YEAH!

Sleepy�Sleepy�Sleepy! I am so tired. I was at wo…

Sleepy�Sleepy�Sleepy! I am so tired. I was at work this morning an hour early. I stayed 2 hours over last night. I am not liking all this. Last night when I left work I went to my Mom�s and my sister went to a firehouse meeting and my Aunt went to dinner with my uncle and it was just my mom and me there. I loved it. We laid in her bed and just talked and watched American Idol. We had a nice time. She liked it just being us too.

Today is Greg�s Birthday. Happy Birthday! He is a quarter of a century old. 25!!!!! He is turning into an old man. LOL I have no room to talk. I will be 25 in one month. I am going to be so old. I hated turning 24, I know I will really hate turning 25! I remember last year my mom and I went and got Steamed Crabs. We ended up getting them down in the city and I was scared walking around the shady area known as Crab Alley. LOL

I don�t know what Greg and I are doing tonight. I want to watch the shows on NBC, Must See TV!

Oh I almost forgot. Last night I heard on the news a story about a little boy who was getting his tonsils out and his throat caught on fire for no reason. I couldn�t believe it! Thank God Shanny pulled through her Tonsil Surgery with no fires!

Work has been so crazy. I can�t wait for the mont…

Work has been so crazy. I can�t wait for the month to be over. Last night I went and had a nice dinner with my mom. I was worried because her catheter bag was dry all day. It is ok now and the Hospice Nurse comes today, I always feel better when the nurse comes. I can�t wait to get to mom�s house after work everyday. I wish I could be the one there taking care of her. Last night I went home to unpack some more. I am so made. My electric Drill is missing. I need it! I can�t hang my blinds of curtains with out it. I did some laundry last nice. I love not having to drag it to my mom or dads to wash. Greg also took out my latest load of unpacked boxes. I found a box of old panties and bras that I have no idea why I was saving. LOL They all went to the dumpster. The maintance people installed my ceiling fan, but I need some fan pull extenders. I am too short to reach the cords. I also ran a phone line into my office. I hated not being able to talk on the phone while I was on the computer. I am going to try to hang some curtains tonight. I also need to clean up the kitchen. I have stuff everywhere. This weekend I need to get my stuff from Nikki�s house and return my key, and then I should be done there. I will be glad to know I am completely moved out. Now if I could just completely unpack and get settled in my new house I would be all set!

I wish today was over. I need a vacation! A week…

I wish today was over. I need a vacation! A week to just stay in bed. Today at work we were all informed we need to get every file in the office done. It is crazy. We were also told we need to stay late if they are not done. Well I had to inform them all I am not staying late. I put in my time, then I want to be home with my mom. Once this is all over then I can stay and help out, but until then I am out at 5. I don�t even want to be here that long. My aunt who is staying with my mom gets all pissed when my sister and I call so much. We only call because we are scared and like to know what is going on during the day. Things have been strained with my aunt, I know she is under lots of pressure and all, but I am sick of her being so snappy and mean to us all. Not my mom, but the rest of us. I think she needs a break. Well I better get back to the grind. I gotta do my share!