I wish I was home! I really think I may be getting a little bit depressed. I cried this morning because I didn�t want to come to work. I hate feeling this way. I am sad 95% of the time. My mom is doing horribly. She can�t eat anymore. Yesterday all she had was a piece of toast and one Graham Cracker. How can a person survive on that??? She is so stubborn too and that just frustrates me. Also with Mother�s day coming up and my birthday and Laura�s Birthday, I am just getting more and more sad. With every commercial for cards or flowers I see I get chocked up. I know I am crying an average of 2-3 times a day. I just hate getting out of bed each morning. Last night Greg came over my mom�s and seen her for the first time in a few months and he got chocked up and told me that he was so sorry because he couldn�t picture that she would look so bad and no matter how many times I told him how sick she was or how horrible she looked he wasn�t ready for what he saw. I just don�t know what I am going to do! Tonight I am going to try again to go to Nikki�s and get my things that are still there. Every time I have tried to go get it in the past week my mom has gotten sick or something and I haven�t been able to make it over there. That is just one more thing weighing down on me! Last night I tried calling her so my Dad and Greg could go get some of the stuff there, but there was no answer and I wasn’t about to send them down there with out knowing if Nikki would be home. I just couldn’t leave my mom last night, not alone. We don’t let her stay alone for any peirod of time. I don’t know how I am going to manage this weekend, My sister and Dad will be away all weekend! I was thinking about it and since my mom got sick not once have I went to my own house right after work! I am sorry to ramble on and on about all this, It just helps to talk about it all once in a while.