I can’t wait for the weekend. Tommorrow I am getting off of work early. I have to go see the lawyer to collect the check from my Mom’s life insurence policy. I am also going to try to go to the bank and deposit it. Then at 7pm I am going to a girl at work’s Tupperware Party. I have my eye on a Deviled Egg holder. I also want the new flexable cake pan. So much. I love Tupperware. Saturday we are going to the bar with Greg’s friends. It should be fun.
My Dad is having my mom’s phone turned off. He told me this last night and I got so upset. I call there everyday just to hear her voice. She still says my name on the answering machine. It is one of those inner phone one’s. I don’t know what I will do once I can’t hear her voice whenever I want to. My dad is going to play it on speaker phone amd make tapes for Laura and I, but it won’t be the same. We haven’t started cleanng out her house, and we really need to. I just can’t bring myself to change it! Last night I had a breakdown. A bad one. I have been doing so good and with hearing about the phone thing it sparked all kinds of penned up nger and saddness. I was so upset crying and all I made my self physically ill! I visit the Grave yard 3-4 times a week. I don’t know what else to do to make myself feel better. I need to stop shopping that is for sure! I am always shopping to chear me up.
See I was going to make a post and it turned into a sad one again. I need to be more uplifted. I am so excited about My Disney Trip coming up in January. I love Disney World so much.