When I Grow Up…… I always think "When I grew …

When I Grow Up……

I always think “When I grew up I wanna do this or wanna be this”. This morning I realized I am a grown up. LOL July will mark 10 years in my current profession. Isn’t that weird? I have a career. One that pays well, One that I know a lot about. It is weird to me. I used to just think of it as a job. I think back to when I started working for a Title Company, I thought it had to do with car titles, I didn’t even realize houses had titles. I remember calling out sick every time I was hung over, I remember taking weeks off with Nikki to go to the Beach. The people I worked for would be so surprised that I am not the pain in the ass kid any more. I NEVER call out sick, I plan my vacation days around my work load, I am responsible. Not that I wasn’t before, but I was 18 or 20 years old. There is a girl here at work who is 19 and it cracks me up the way she loves work. She is the receptionist, and she skips all over the office and thinks of work still as a luxury instead of a necessity. It makes me smile when I think back 10 years ago, when that was me!

Baby, Baby, Baby Ok I want one. Everyone has one…

Baby, Baby, Baby

Ok I want one. Everyone has one but me. LOL seriously I used to wonder what your biologial clock ticking would feel like, and now I know….. Tick Tock Tick Tock! I think about babies all the time, I name them in my head daily. It is a sickness! I love babies, I am dying to have one. I know I need to be married first and ready for one financially, but just the thought of a tiny little baby, a baby that is half me and half Pete just melts my heart! I can honestly say if I mistakenly would end up pregnant I wouldn’t be upset about it in the least. Now that said I am taking all necessary precautions to prevent this from spontaneously happening.

Over Him

Over Him

I am over him, 100% over him. Him who you ask? Well there was a boy I fell in love with when I was ten years old. I loved him in the sick puppy dog love kinda way. We became best friends, the kind that can talk on the phone for 4 hours and then call each other back 20 minutes after hanging up. I hid my love for him because I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. I hid it so well or so I thought, his friends knew, my friends knew, both of our parents knew, our sisters knew too. I hid it for a long time. Eventually I stopped hiding it from my friends, but kept up a good front around his friends. I would get all tingley when I seen him, I would get butterflies in my belly (at 23 years old no less). He has had girlfriends and I would hate them all, I would help him when he had girl problems and he was there for me when I had guy issues. We never dated, we never talked about our (my?) love. I know he had feelings for me. We were the girl and boy part of the same person. Our likes, dislikes all the same. When he needed to be calmed down his friends would seek me out to do it. When I needed to be cheered up all I had to do was think of him. We had a connection that was unlike any connection that I ever knew. Other people could see the connection when we were together, we just clicked! I lost a boyfriend once because he knew I loved this other boy, he told me when he broke up with me “I can not be in love with someone who is in love with someone else!” But I hid it…or so I thought. I remember once when he moved to a differant state 10 hours away to live with a girl, an ex stripper none the less (the move didn’t last long), I cried for about a week. I was heartbroken! One day while I was sitting at his Mom’s house having tea with his Mom and grandma they told me they always wanted me to be the mother of their grandchildren. Even they knew! When I got engaged (never married….long unrelated story), I couldn’t tell him, I had a website talking all about the proposal and wedding plans, and I couldn’t send it to him. His Mom told him and then he sent me a email telling me about how hurt he was I didn’t tell him. I made up some story about just forgetting to add him to the mass emailing. I don’t know why we never hooked up, became more then friends, but it never happened. We are still friends to this day exchanging emails daily, occasional phone calls and visits. I realized a few weeks ago that I do not love him anymore, sure I love him, I have been friends with him for 18 years, but I am not in love with him anymore. I am in love with Pete. 100% in love with Pete. Even with all my other boyfriends, deep down somewhere I still loved him. He has a girlfriend, he has had MANY in the time we have been friends, but this one, although we have never met, I don’t hate.

Dracula Don’t Wanna Come Near My Neck I am covere…

Dracula Don’t Wanna Come Near My Neck

I am covered in Posion…Posion oak? Posion Ivy? Some kind of Posion. It is killing me. I Itch so freaking bad. I can’t sleep I am misserable, I don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything. I am just plain old misserable! It is all ovr my neck, my left side and my upper thight of my left leg (Slowly aproaching my hootchie coo)! Does anyone have any Idea how to make it stop. I am currently coating myself with BLEACH to dry it up!

Katelyn Katelyn wanted to do a photoshoot the oth…

Katelyn

Katelyn wanted to do a photoshoot the other day when she spent the night. We ended up with some cute shots. She is such a pretty little thing. She has the best personality. You can’t help but love her up. She has pete wrapped around her finger. Here are some of the pictures from the other day:


Bad Blogger I know I have been a horrible Blogger…

Bad Blogger

I know I have been a horrible Blogger here recently. I usually blog from work, but I have been training a new girl for the past 3 weeks. I can’t say in the middle of our training and “Oh by the way let me update all my internet friends on my life”. When I get home I usually don’t have much to do with the computer. I am on it all day everyday! Things have been going along normally. Nothing new and exciting. We went to the kids Dance recital and that was fun. Katelyn has serious love for my boy. She is now going to be a Back Doctor so she can go to work with him everyday!

Look at the two of them:



Happy Father’s Day I have the best Dad in the w…

Happy Father’s Day

I have the best Dad in the whole world.